my exams are over now:) i quite like exams because i like the time off and i like the exam if it's an easy subject. today was business, it was pretty easy it just hurt my hand allot and i wanted to give up, i think i wrote about 12 pages.
i got a B for my maths prelim :) I'm pretty happy with that, probs failed the rest though.
today i was meant to go to kircaldy with Mark but he bought his titp ticket so he has nae money so I'm going to go for lunch with Kim instead, i like doing things with Kim she makes me laugh allot, I'm not going to see her this weekend atoll that kinda upsets me because she always stays at my house on a Saturday, it is a regular occurrence. i don't know where were going to go for lunch but I'm really hungry, I'm also on a diet so it cant be something really fattening and if it is then i cant eat tonight. i need to find something to wear, i have allot of clothes but i don't really like allot of them, i buy a new outfit every week and i only wear things once. I'm wearing my bag that makes Kim smile, i like making Kim smile because she needs to smile right now. i hope me and mark can have our day out soon because we havn't had one in aaages
i want to get a contract phone but you have to be 18 to get one :(. o2 thinks it's funny to just give me 300 free texts a month and to be honest that really isn't enough, i will have used them in about a week and i will then use my £15 and i will have no money in my phone :( i hate no having money in my phone, i feel like i have no contact with the world atoll. what did people do before mobile phones?
I'm excited for t in the park but i don't think it will be very good because i don't really talk to steph much anymore because she spends every waking moment with her boyfriend, i hate when people do that. so i hope Hayley gets a ticket then i can camp with her too and Darren and all his friends and it should be a laugh.
the title of this is a girls aloud song because they were on the radio at the time i was pondering for a title, it does not relate to my life in any way whatsoever before awcunt gets ideas about it.
tomorrow is Chris' party, i don't know whether to be excited for Chris' party or not it could be shite but it could be amazing, i think it will be pretty good, me and my dad need to go to asda so i can get drink. i don't want to get too drunk because i don't want a horrible hangover but i will probably end up pretty minging. I'm scared because Chris lives in broomhead flats which is like drug central, i don't want to die:( I'm sure i wont, wish me luck.
Friday, 27 February 2009
Wednesday, 25 February 2009
just some things.
i have just finished playing the wii fit. i .like the wii fit, it's fun, i haven't been on it for 161 days it tells me, i think i might start going on it more regularly, i have ordered Davina McCall's fitness DVD because Claire says it's good ad i want to loose weight, when my mummy and daddy come back from Dublin they are going to buy me a bike so i Can go on bike rides with Mark. I'm going to do all this instead of getting a membership for the gym because i probs will never go to the gym and it will just be a waste of money plus bike ride and fitness DVDs are allot more fun that the gym alone.
i really want to loose weight, i hate the way i look, i don't want to be really skinny because that's not cool plus i wouldn't be able to do that because my boobs are too big but i want to loose my tummy and be more toned for when i go on holiday, nobody wants to go on holiday with a whale.
i cannot wait for summer, i like it when it's warm, i like how you never have to wear a jacket or a scarf and it looks OK when you wear shorts, i really like wearing shorts, they provide a great sense of freedom and comfort. also i like being tanned and it makes my hair go blonder, i don't like when my hair looks really dark, I'm thinking about going to get it highlighted. t in the perk is also in the summer. i love t in the perk but i have a feeling it's not going to be as good this year as what it was last year.
i tryed to revise today and failed miserably. i don't think i can study any more, i know everything there is to know about higher modern studies because I've done it for two years, i just don't know how to write essays and no amount of studying can improve that, it all boils down to how i do on the day to be honest. if i don't pass this prelim i get chucked out of modern :. i hope we don't get a really really hard question that i don't know anything about like, politics in South Africa I'm not good at that.
i went to the library yesterday with Mark and Claire i still didn't study there, i just looked around and wrote Mark notes and stared at the disgusting junkie woman who kept giving us daggers. the librarians were really noisy, it's supposed to be quiet in the library. i wrote a little bit of an essay that's all. me and mark went for a subway, it was good, i like subway but i hate the way it leads you to think it's healthy because it doesn't look fattening but really it is, one subway sandwich has more salt than 7 packets of ready salted crisps.
i cannot wait until prelims are over.
i cannot wait to drive.
i really want to loose weight, i hate the way i look, i don't want to be really skinny because that's not cool plus i wouldn't be able to do that because my boobs are too big but i want to loose my tummy and be more toned for when i go on holiday, nobody wants to go on holiday with a whale.
i cannot wait for summer, i like it when it's warm, i like how you never have to wear a jacket or a scarf and it looks OK when you wear shorts, i really like wearing shorts, they provide a great sense of freedom and comfort. also i like being tanned and it makes my hair go blonder, i don't like when my hair looks really dark, I'm thinking about going to get it highlighted. t in the perk is also in the summer. i love t in the perk but i have a feeling it's not going to be as good this year as what it was last year.
i tryed to revise today and failed miserably. i don't think i can study any more, i know everything there is to know about higher modern studies because I've done it for two years, i just don't know how to write essays and no amount of studying can improve that, it all boils down to how i do on the day to be honest. if i don't pass this prelim i get chucked out of modern :. i hope we don't get a really really hard question that i don't know anything about like, politics in South Africa I'm not good at that.
i went to the library yesterday with Mark and Claire i still didn't study there, i just looked around and wrote Mark notes and stared at the disgusting junkie woman who kept giving us daggers. the librarians were really noisy, it's supposed to be quiet in the library. i wrote a little bit of an essay that's all. me and mark went for a subway, it was good, i like subway but i hate the way it leads you to think it's healthy because it doesn't look fattening but really it is, one subway sandwich has more salt than 7 packets of ready salted crisps.
i cannot wait until prelims are over.
i cannot wait to drive.
Monday, 23 February 2009
lies
i thought i would start this for many reasons
1. i have nothing better to do
2. i am nosey
3. i want my life to sound exciting
my life consists of school,work,town,hangover,work that is pretty much all i do, i probably need to stop drinking because the state i get in is disgusting and i don't like it but i just cant hep it, it's pretty funny most of the time i never really do anything completely outrageous that i regret but the hangovers are not very good.
what do you do when someone tells you something and you don't know what advice to give to them? you try to put yourself in there situation but i cant because i would never do that, OK i have once but it was nowhere near as bad. is lying always the best choice? can i sit and watch someone be soo happy but it all be a lie, or can i watch there life fall apart and watch all that upset and watch it hurting so many different people because of the truth. maybe it isn't best to lie, maybe it was a one off, but i know for a fact it isn't and that's what makes it all worse because it could happen so many times, it could snowball into one big giant lie, and hes so innocent, so nice, so happy. but when you think about the truth and you imagine what would happen it is not a good outcome, so many people would get hurt, people you wouldn't even think of would get hurt. I'm glad she told me because it shows she can trust me but in a way i kinda wish she hadn't because now her problem has also became mine when it shouldn't have. i try to think maybe i could have done something to prevent it, but i cant blame myself, i didn't know. AHHH
i have a driving lesson soon, i like driving but i hate lessons, they go on for so long and i just want to fucking drive, i wish you didn't have to do a test and stuff i wish you could just get a few lessons and that would it vroom vroom I'm driving.
my mum keeps hounding me to study, i want to but i just cant, I'm such a failure, this week i am going to try my hardest, i need to, i need to do my best i cant let everyone down, i cant let myself down. i need to try harder in all aspects of school, i need to study more, concentrate, try harder, do homework. i set a goal to but i can just never do it :(.
apart from that life is good :)
1. i have nothing better to do
2. i am nosey
3. i want my life to sound exciting
my life consists of school,work,town,hangover,work that is pretty much all i do, i probably need to stop drinking because the state i get in is disgusting and i don't like it but i just cant hep it, it's pretty funny most of the time i never really do anything completely outrageous that i regret but the hangovers are not very good.
what do you do when someone tells you something and you don't know what advice to give to them? you try to put yourself in there situation but i cant because i would never do that, OK i have once but it was nowhere near as bad. is lying always the best choice? can i sit and watch someone be soo happy but it all be a lie, or can i watch there life fall apart and watch all that upset and watch it hurting so many different people because of the truth. maybe it isn't best to lie, maybe it was a one off, but i know for a fact it isn't and that's what makes it all worse because it could happen so many times, it could snowball into one big giant lie, and hes so innocent, so nice, so happy. but when you think about the truth and you imagine what would happen it is not a good outcome, so many people would get hurt, people you wouldn't even think of would get hurt. I'm glad she told me because it shows she can trust me but in a way i kinda wish she hadn't because now her problem has also became mine when it shouldn't have. i try to think maybe i could have done something to prevent it, but i cant blame myself, i didn't know. AHHH
i have a driving lesson soon, i like driving but i hate lessons, they go on for so long and i just want to fucking drive, i wish you didn't have to do a test and stuff i wish you could just get a few lessons and that would it vroom vroom I'm driving.
my mum keeps hounding me to study, i want to but i just cant, I'm such a failure, this week i am going to try my hardest, i need to, i need to do my best i cant let everyone down, i cant let myself down. i need to try harder in all aspects of school, i need to study more, concentrate, try harder, do homework. i set a goal to but i can just never do it :(.
apart from that life is good :)
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